In 2019, a coach who was a friend at the time was helping me with something.
She was sending me all these things to help me with my money mindset at the time because I had no problem making it, I just couldn't get it fast enough!
"SAM! YOU GOT TO REMOVE YOUR MONEY BLOCK GIRL!"
And I literally thought to myself,
IF I FUCKING KNEW WHAT IT WAS I WOULD GET RID OF IT!
I literally would cry so hard watching everyone make shit loads of money, buy the books do the rituals but still NADA!!!!
I was massively in my own way when it comes to allowing money to flow to me with ease.
This is one of the reasons why I invested so much time, money, and energy into coaching and services because there had to be a way!
There must have been something missing from my life!
Here I was helping all my clients earn 5 figure months, and launching businesses from scratch, manifesting their dream homes, why was it not working for me?
I so began to doubt myself, and judged myself HARD which was why I really thought working with coaches would help me!
I even said I would never work with anyone ever again, but sometimes when you say one thing, isn't it weird you end up doing the opposite anyway? (check my post from yesterday in what I did in the past 6 months LORD ALMIGHTY!)
During the pandemic, when it first kicked off, I literally had enough. My business was crumbling, so i went from low cash flow to almost zero!
I thought fuck it! Let me just be!
I remember one day, I was sitting on the sofa chillaxing watching some TV completely NOT thinking of work or money, and my hubby mentioned something to me about how I was in 2013 when I moved out pregnant with a 1-year-old, working part-time, and I wasn't even struggling with money, even though I felt as if I was.
When I heard it, it was like this lightbulb moment!
His words began to trigger off all these memories in the mind with my behaviour, my actions and the results when it came to money.
AND THAT'S WHEN IT HIT ME!
I just discovered my money block.
"I cannot be trusted with money therefore I have to always borrow!"
It all made sense!
I stole when I was 7.
At 15 I got a mobile phone under my mums name. She always paid my bills
At 18 I was stealing ALOT.
I also got a store card, which mum paid off.
At 19 I got my first credit card and by the time I was 21 I had accrued over 40k in debt.
At 23 I was in an IVA
At 30 I was bankrupt.
At 32 I went from 3.5k a month to the government maternity pay.
I was on the system!
I had to borrow, to live, borrow, borrow, borrow!
AND I CRIED!
I cried because I finally realised the work I had to do to work on my money mindset and take back my power, because I allowed money to be the problem, instead of allowing it to be my friend because of my past money story. It was so deeply embedded and I was completely out of alignment!
fast forward to now, things are a lot more different....
BUT HOW DID IT GET THERE? ...(PART 2 COMING SOON )